So, I bet you guys noticed that my art and activity has been slowing down these past couple weeks, mostly due to school. In all honesty, I haven’t been on my computer for over a week and I haven’t really had much motivation to even visit Deviantart. The reason being is not just because of school, I’ve been able to draw and check my messages from time to time. But my whole life just came to a complete halt this Tuesday – when I heard my Cousin, whom I was extremely close to, passed away on Monday, September 22nd 2014. He died from jumping off a 22-storey apartment tower. He committed suicide and I still can’t believe it…
I’m Heartbroken; all of my cousins were raised together. All of us being within the same age range - it was the perfect dynamic. But now that dynamic is broken, we are all broken. Family, Friends and Just people he knew are all devastated and shocked. He always had a smile on his face and one of the most intelligent, hardworking, and caring people I have ever met. No one could imagine that he was this bad, bad enough to take his own life.
The world just had to choose him… even though Heaven gained another angel, My Dear Cousin, we lost a dear student, friend, son, brother, cousin and much more. We will struggle with the why of it all, but you will be forever remembered by all of us who love you. Your witty humour, wonderful smile, your talent and intelligence, they will stick with us - you will not be forgotten. I love you Ian, wherever you are. I only wish I got to say goodbye.
Any support or advice would be great, I’m grieving greatly and it’s just so hard to get through everyday life. I've never lost such a major family member before, so I really do not know how to deal with it. I’m sorry for not responding to your messages these past couple of weeks – but I’ll get to them ASAP.